I know I am breaking my anonymity in writing this memoir and did not make this decision lightly. I have started and stopped this project for more than 10 years. Here is why I undertook this challenge.
In 1997 I was in the throes of this disease and could not stop drinking. On the way to our vacation home I purchased a book, and what the author described about herself and about alcoholism saved my life. I have no delusions of saving anyone.
However, if I can shed more light on the disease of alcoholism, I believe for that I am responsible. As an active alcoholic I rarely finished anything I started that was worthwhile. When it got tough, I drank and then I quit. I also rarely took ownership for my actions. My intention, therefore, is to complete this task and own it. My name attached to this book will let me know I have succeeded on both counts.